Why I joined a gym when I hate to exercise

I left the comfort of my home and joined a gym!

I did it! After years of buying equipment I don’t use at home and after years of buying workout programs and not working out, I finally joined a gym.
Wait! What? Joined a gym? Yes, I did. To be honest it was at the urging of my son. Not to mention this was supposed to be my year to start taking care of me. We are a quarter way through the year and it hasn’t happened yet. I take care of myself and put me first? Am I allowed to do that? The goal of eating right and exercise to be healthy and have “me time” has so far failed.

Working out at home is supposed to be easy…right? I have all the equipment to workout. I have dumbbells and bands and bars. You name it, I have it. The equipment just stays in the place where I set it down. Don’t get me wrong, I have worked out a couple of times when I buy new things, but it never lasts. You would think it would be easy to get up and just work out but that is not what happens with me. I am too busy. I am tired. I am aching from sitting down all day and the list of excuses goes on. I have no discipline, no structure and am terrible at time management.
Promises to myself and my family have been going on for years. I have the best intentions. I get excited about my future weight loss and how I am going to have a victory at last. Big Fail…

Joining a gym makes me accountable. First off, I must pay monthly. It is hard for me to have money just fly out of my bank account for no reason. I mean, I am not going to just give the gym my money. I must get on a schedule to workout. How am I going to do that with all my excuses? No more excuses, time management is going to have to be learned. Time Management is probably tougher on me than working out but that is a discussion for another time.

I was told to be successful at the gym, is to go daily. Just go. Just show up. Make it part of your schedule and go whether you want to or not. They (I am not sure who “they” are) say that once you are at the gym you will be glad you went, and you will feel better once you work out.

Signed up and now it is time to go workout!

Next week, I will be meeting with a personal trainer to find out if I want a personal trainer or not. The gym offers this free for all new members. The trainer will measure me and tell me what I already know. I am fat, out of shape and need to watch what I eat. Yes, yes, I know.

I wish I still had the mindset of my younger self. If my younger self could see into the future and see how big I am she would have just died. I was so motivated back then. I was very active, and I exercised and yes, I was eating right too. Actually, I had this motivation for most of my life even after I had three boys and then something happened. I can’t tell you what happened to that motivation because I just don’t know. Am I motivated now? Nope, but I am going to do this gym thing anyway. I will stay on schedule and I will try my best even if I don’t want to go. Basically, I want to be healthy and fit without the work. It’s hard and I can’t move like I used to move. Use it or lose right? Well, I think I have pretty much lost it.

I don’t want to fail again.

You know what you must do instead of what you want to do and that has to take priority when you want to be healthy, happy and feel better. Am I full of it? Maybe, but if I tell everyone then I have to go and succeed right?
Next week starts the new me with no more excuses; working out whether I want to or not and finally achieving the goals I have been promising everyone for years. Okay, enough of the talk. I really want to succeed this time. Wish me luck for next week and I will let you know how it goes.

Until next time,
Kari